Monday, April 19, 2010

need your caffeine vibes

if there's one thing i LOOOOVE, it's sleep. cozying up in my pj's, snuggled up in my covers.

except work is trying to ruin it.

not only did i get a call at 5:30 yesterday afternoon telling me i'd need to work overnight (11pm - 7am), BUT i get to do it again.

oh yeah, LOOOOVE getting voicemails from 10:15 am WHILE I'VE BEEN ASLEEP FOR 90 MINUTES telling me i get to stay awake again until 7am tomorrow morning.

my body is exhausted...but i'm not sure i can sleep. i'm gonna be worn out, worn down, worn slap out by tomorrow.


i'm the girl who doesn't call out sick. i'm the girl who's taken her entire vacation ONCE in the 5 years she's been working. i'm the girl who did the right thing and swapped on-call weekends when i went out of town for the masters.

and i'm the one who gets screwed.

i've spent the better part of the afternoon crying, because it's NOT. FAIR.

now when i'm at least 90% sure the girl who's calling out isn't really sick. i don't believe she can't get a doctor to see her until tomorrow. i don't believe whatever it is is bad enough to keep her from work.

i don't believe it should be me. i've been there the longest...but because the new people "can't handle it", i get effed over.


it's really hard doing your job when you've been burnt out for more than a year...and then keep getting the short end of the stick.

it's really hard knowing you strive for excellence, but settle for barely passable because it's not worth the extra effort.

it's hard knowing you worked for 4 years for a degree you'll probably never use again.

its hard knowing the ONLY thing keeping you going is the meager, barely about minimum wage paycheck coming in.

it's just REALLY hard right now.


Summer {Bisfor...} said...

babydoll. i feel your pain. ugh. i wish there was a such thing as a sleepcation.

Pippy said...

ohhh girl I SO feel you on this one.
I worked at a Veterinary Hospital for a long time and had tons of experience, yet I always managed to get the short end of the stick. I remember the day I decided I had had enough. I had scrubbed in for a surgery, it was past time to go home, and I was standing there holding a dogs intestines in my hands and one of the Dr's said something about how hungry he was because the kid at burger king had messed up his sandwich.
It hit me that I was making minimum wage, no more than the kid at burger king who couldn't leave the tomato and mayo off his chicken sandwich and yet here I was, in surgery, holding intestines.
And I would be there cleaning up and checking on the patient even after the dr. got to go home to eat dinner.

Mrs. Prepperoni said...

I'm so sorry my sweet girl.
Can Nate just go ahead and make you a trophy wife already?

Bumpkin on a Swing said...

Come now, isn't nice to know how much they depend on you, and how valuable you are to them. Surely there is a bright point somewhere.
What field are you working in?

Nikki Cogg said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this- it's awful when you're not appreciated at work. I hope these next few days fly by for you and you're able to get some well-deserved sleep!

The Pink Tutu said...

I hope things get better!!

Sweet Southern Prep said...

I am so so so sorry, and on a Monday of all days too. :(

To make you feel better, and hoping that tomorrow will be a better day, I tagged you in a post tomorrow. :)

bananas. said...

lady, take a vacation...RIGHT NOW!!! seriously! if you feel you're being taken advantage of take the time off you need to get yourself back together, sleep, do you, etc. you deserve it!!!!!!